Well, it's official. I've said it out loud that I'm leaving. So far I've only told one of those who I need to speak to but it's a start. The beginning of the end. Or maybe the beginning of a new beginning. But right now it feels like the end. I guess you could say I'm in mourning. Saying it out loud after such a long time of only thinking about it hypothetically is quite a shock to the system. It still feels unreal and somehow I can't picture any kind of future anymore. But I'm sure this is going to come back once the message has sunk in.
But heck, this is SCARY.
