There is a slight possibility that I might have just started another anorexic phase - it's been three days since I last threw up and also since I last ate anything that wasn't liquid. I found out that it's much easier not to throw up if I don't eat anything substantial. So now it's soup, juice, tea, diet coke and, of course, water.
Anyway, last week I met up with old friends from university and one of them said 'Wow, you got super-skinny, just don't lose any more weight'. You can't imagine how happy this made me. I know I'm pathetic but it's so good to know that this time someone actually sees when I've lost weight.
When I fist got my ED when I was 15 I lost about 60 lbs and no one ever noticed. Not my parents, not my teachers, not my friends, no one. Yes, some of them commented on how good (!) I looked but none of them saw the extent of it. When I told my mother a few years ago how much weight I actually had lost she didn't believe me. Sad but true.
I'm quite happy that I haven't been throwing up for several days now - it's so much easier to cope with not eating than it is to cope with throwing up. :)
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