Why does meeting friends and socalising necessarily have to be linked to food? I don't want to lose my friends just because of my ED but what can I do if meeting them means barbecues, dinner invitations or going out for lunch? I'm not sure which feels worse - not meeting them or eating. I usually choose eating because this way I can tell myself that I still have power over my ED... But I feel terribly guilty which again induces me to purge or take laxatives. This can't be good.
And of course, I don't just write this without reason. I'm going to a barbeque tonight with three other friends (and since there's only four of us there's no way I could not eat - they'd be bound to notice) and I'm dreading it already. I really want to meet them and have a good time but on the other hand I really don't want to eat.

EDs and social life don't mix well. :(