Either malnourishment is finally taking its toll or I'm just having a fairly bad day. I'm feeling very slight and dizzy today, and when I went shopping earlier this afternoon I had trouble standing up straight every time after I had picked something up from the lower shelves. Funny, seeing that I am no where even close to being underweight. But I guess malnourishment isn't necessarily linked to weight, especially not when you were really overweight like I was.
It's wonderful to feel so light-headed, though. Makes me feel like I can just float with the wind, and it makes me feel rather pretty.
Oh yeah, my faith is still shaky but it's definitely getting better. I talked about it to a friend last night which really helped and also last weeks holiday did quite a bit for me spiritually.
I desperately need someone to talk about my ED but I guess it's in the nature of an ED that you can't really talk about it. Just the thought of someone else knowing about it sends me running away, let alone the thought of people being worried and trying to make me eat. I think I'd rather not talk and be left alone. Nothing's worse than being forced to eat, and I really don't want to offend my friends by not eating (and as long as they don't know about my ED it's quite easy to avoid meals or eat very little). This is one of the reasons why I started to blog here - no one will know who I am in real life yet I can still talk about it. And maybe, just maybe, I can help others who suffer from an ED with it... But that's probably just a very vain hope.